spring essentials.

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i dare say that over here in the north of carolina, spring has sprung. the flowers are blooming, the grass is green, & the temperature is finally above 50 degrees. it happened pretty all of the sudden this year. it was freezing one moment, & then hot the next! but i’m not complaining. while my allergies are horrific this time of year, at least i’m not shivering & getting colds. helloooo blue skies, you are ever so welcome here.

now, i will say that the one problem with spring coming so soon is that all of the sudden, you realize you have to do some spring cleaning in your wardrobe! & for me this year, that meant having to buy new spring style essentials. i won’t get into details, but due to some of my health struggles i no longer fit into my old clothes. & i was also prescribed a new purse, as my old one was too heavy for the arthritis in my neck. thanks to my beloved mother & free time during spring break, i have a nice little spring essentials layout for you guys.

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sunnies:: the sun is out, & homegirl has super sensitivity to light & glares. i used to have a pair of vintage 70’s glasses that i grabbed from an antique shop, but they didn’t really block any of the suns rays. so while i was at home for spring break, i grabbed these sunglasses from a place called versona. also, did you know that my head is humongous? i had to get a pair that were decently sized so as to not look like a pin head. & that’s your first spring essential for you. get a good pair of sunnies.

accessories:: am i the only person that categorizes my jewelry by season? it’s like i have certain necklaces & bracelets i only wear in winter, & i tend to only bring out the gold jewelry during the spring & summer seasons. so for weirdies like me, i enjoy grabbing some jewelry staples to wear during the warm seasons.

my grandma used to have a gold leaf necklace & i grew up loving it. as you all probably know, i love leaves with an undying passion. so wearing one around my neck is a life goal probably. can you believe that this gorgeous gold leaf necklace is from CVS pharmacy?! yeah, they have jewelry now & it’s actually pretty fancy. so, thanks to my dear marmee for buying me this precious necklace that’s perfect for spring!

bags:: here’s the sitch… i have horrible back/neck problems. unfortunately, my doctor told me i needed a lighter purse than the leather satchel i’ve had for years. i was really attached to that thing… so i’m a little sad to let it go. it took forever to find any kind of purse that would suffice, but after heading into one of my favorite stores, earthbound trading company, i found a neat olive green canvas bag that was really lightweight. i still really miss my leather satchel, but i think this canvas bag is cute for spring.

dresses:: i own so many black & white striped things. i genuinely don’t like wearing bright colors anymore, & shy away from patterns (other than stripes) as well. in fact, if you wanna hear me explain my wardrobe choices in one of my favorite posts to date, go here & laugh at me. you have my permission.

now if there’s one awesome thing that spring brings, it’s dress wearing weather! & i do love my flowy dresses. nothing like only having to pick out one item of clothing instead of two in the morning! plus, no pants. need i say more? well i will, because i want to let y’all know that you can pick up this striped flowy dress over at ross. it’s a great place to pick out dresses in my opinion, because they have all kinds & it’s super budget friendly!

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shorts:: goodbye leggings, it’s shorts weather! now unfortunately due to some medical issues i’m having, i’ve gained a little weight in my lower half. i’m super insecure about my body, & i’m trying very hard to counteract that. it’s just that shorts are a hard thing to wear when ya booty & thighs don’t want to fit into anything. ya know when i was growing up, the style was to wear extreme low rise & way too short booty shorts. i was not a fan of that fad. my booty didn’t fit that agenda, or those shorts. so i was super thrilled when i went short shopping & discovered that flowy boho shorts are in this season! i’ve been sporting the flowy shorts for years, but i’m glad the world is finally catching on.

first, let’s talk about those adorable “suede flirty shorts” from target. i don’t know about flirty… my flirting abilities are limited to winking at the love bug & saying “wanna order pizza?” but, LET ME SPLAIN YOU A THING. THESE ARE THE SOFTEST SHORTS IN THE WORLD. it basically feels like you’re wearing pajamas, but it looks super fancy! they are super free flowing, so maybe wear some spandex or running shorts underneath so you don’t flash the world. i think these shorts would pair well with a black top or a black & white striped top. what do y’all think?

i got the second olive green pair from versona. these aren’t really flowy, but they are high-waisted & have a longer inseam. high waisted shorts are another fad i love, but i only love them if they’re long as well! there’s no point being high-waisted if they’re gonna be up your cheeks. this pair is made of a soft lyocell material, which is apparently a form of rayon. i’d describe them as breathable but still a thick material, that unfortunately wrinkles super easily. they’ve got an elastic waistband, & i’ve worn it with a grey tank. it would probably go well with a black, white, or striped shirt as well!

next, the flowy “jean” shorts from target. technically they’re lyocell material as well, but they feel & look like soft denim! i was sort of afraid this pair would be reminiscent of those 90’s denim looking swim trunks we all wore? (oh, i’m the only one? embarrassing…) but they actually don’t look so silly when on. it’s just nice that they’re soft & flowy & provide lots of room for those of us with a little extra. they’ve got an elastic waistband, but also have a rope tie. i’ve worn these with a grey tank, striped shirt, & i bet they’d really go well with any flowy shirt.

lastly, i grabbed a new pair of black high/mid waisted jeans also from target. they’re technically called the “mid rise midi jean shorts” so i don’t think they’re actually high wasited, but they do come a good amount up your waist. they’re really nice & stretchy, & have a long enough inseam as well. they’ve got a cuffed hemline & metal buttons, & probably would go with any colored top.

the best part of all these shorts is that for once in women’s fashion they have given us REAL POCKETS!!! woohoo!!!!! it’s just a delight to actually have pockets that i can still my plethora of miscellaneous items in. & they’re all big enough for your phone, not just shallow pockets that give you false hope. how cool is this?! this is very cool, that’s your answer.

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sandals:: oh yeah, did i mention the grass went from crusty brown to HELLO FRIENDS I AM ALIVE green? it’s great. so grab yourself some sandals, like these comfy as heck black sandals from target. & go frolic in the grass to your hearts content. also, i have been painting my toes black since high school. will i ever choose a different color? the world may never know. (well actually, the answer is no i won’t ever. so there ya go.)


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i know this isn’t a beauty item, but what better way to welcome spring into the world than with an ice cream cone? the love bug & i ran over to an ice cream stand & grabbed us some peanut butter cup ice cream cones on a sunny day. i think a sweet treat could be considered an essential… don’t you?

& there ya have it folks! my spring essentials! i hope you enjoyed today’s post. let me know what your spring essentials are in the comments!

much love & hugs & spring flowers,



i’m not making this up.

i’m being very honest about this make-up.

hah see how i made that pun there wasn’t it hilarious i’m so lame

anyways, it’s been a while since i’ve done a beauty related post, so i thought i would do some make-up product reviews for you today! these are just some items i’ve picked up in the last month or so. even though beauty posts are totally out of my comfort zone, i tried my best to swatch the products & just give you the general run down on how these products have worked for me! sound good? cool, lets get started::

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first off, i want to talk about these Covergirl lipsticks:: the special edition Star Wars, the Force Awakens lipsticks!! ahh. so, as you all should know by now, i love star wars. so when Covergirl made a make-up range based on the new star wars movie, i was thrilled to try out some products. i personally wasn’t sold on their mascara, & i’m not a big fan of nail polish, but i couldn’t wait to try their lipsticks! i’ll tackle these one at a time:

the first color i purchased was the shade “70”… i’ll say right now that my main complaint regarding these lipsticks is the missed opportunity to have epic names! ugh. so, i’ve gone ahead & helped Covergirl out by naming each lipstick i purchased.

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(awkward swatchy hand, help me beauty bloggers)

we’re calling this first shade, tatooine. this one is hands down my favorite. i want to wear it all the time. it’s sort of a shimmery sandy rose gold. depending on how much you apply, you can get a very sheer look or a very full look. to me, this is their most successful lipstick they came out with, as it wears well & the color pay off is gorgeous. can’t rave about this one enough!!

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the second shade i bought was the shade “50”, which i have also called gungan energy shield. i suppose you could also just call this shade the dark side as it’s their darkest shade in the collection. now, this one isn’t my favorite. unfortunately, it doesn’t really apply evenly, & it tends to be a lot drier than the previous lipstick i reviewed. now, don’t get me wrong, i don’t hate this shade. once you get it on right, it’s a statement lip for sure. a gorgeous deep plum. another problem is that it will stain your lips. my advice is to use a lip liner, & be careful to never smear it, even when removing it. otherwise, it’s a pretty shade.

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the next shade i purchased is the shade “30”, or darth maul. a gorgeous red color, with slightly cool undertones. it has similar problems to the previous shade in the blotchy department, & not so bad but still in the stain department as well. i’d again suggest the lipliner & careful removal. i love how all the lipsticks have a shimmer & sort of metallic sheen to them though, & i’ve never owned a red lipstick that had a metallic shimmer to it. so that’s a really cool aspect of this lipstick.

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now the last shade i got was the shade “20”, or mace windu. cause lightsaber, duh. i have to say, this shade intrigues me. i had no idea if i was going to be able to pull it off, especially with being a super pale girl with an immune disorder that makes my lips look purple anyway. i’m really glad i tried it out though, because it’s a gorgeous lipstick! it’s a lot like the first shade in texture. it’s a shimmery, cool toned lilac. it’s definitely one of of the more sheer shades, & you really have to build up the color to get good pay off, but that doesn’t bother me much. it does weirdly stain your lips pink? but i can overlook it. surprisingly this shade doesn’t look too bad with my pale skin, & i think it’s really pretty.

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now, since it is the horrid season of winter, i have become deathly pale. i have about 5 different foundations in my make-up collection for the many stages my face takes throughout the season. now i’ve been ill lately, & the sun has been hiding away, so i’ve been needing a new foundation for my new facial stage of white. i’m almost convinced i could have bought white paint & just smeared that on my face… however, this makeup does the trick quite well. this is Maybelline New York’s Fit me! matte & poreless makeup for normal to oily skin, in the shade 110 Porcelain.

personally, i really love matte formulas. i’m not really fond of the dewy look, especially in the winter, so this matte finish is splendid. it’s pale enough for my ghostly complexion, give an excellent amount of coverage, & feels good on my skin. i’m really loving it at the moment!

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i’ve been wanting to try out matte lipsticks for quite some time. one of my friends who’s a make up addict raved about these in particular, so i went searching for them to test them out. i love lipstick, as i raved about at the beginning of this post, however… i don’t really love the impracticality of it. i like to eat, my lipstick doesn’t necessarily like it. i like to kiss my love bug, the love bug won’t come near me with lipstick on. i like naps, my white sheets do not agree with red lipstick. et cetera, et cetera, et cetera. so, here’s my review of these matte thingies!

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(awkward swatchy arm because lipsticks stained my hand)

the first that i tried out is the color sandstorm. it’s obviously a nude shade, erring on the side of a sandy brownish mauve? (help) anyway, it’s a nice color. i get scared that i look like an old lady when wearing it, but my friends reassure me it looks nice. but am i sold on this matte thing? no.

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this is tea & cookies. i think i only bought it for the name, because oh my gosh how precious & posh is that name??? i don’t normally wear pink lipsticks, & for some reason i thought this one would wear a little more nude that pink. alas, it’s a very bubble gum light pink. it’s not bad though! it actually looks quite nice, & probably will get some use in the spring. but, like i was saying, i’m not the biggest fan of this matte thing. for me, they’re just really sticky & also really drying. they make me even more aware that i’m wearing lipstick than normal lipstick! but, a lot of people find the complete opposite. i think i may just be a regular lipstick girl.

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& now, cherry skies. i didn’t expect this lipstick to be quite this dark. it’s a very bold, deep dark red. probably only for nighttime wear, & probably only for certain occasions. it also stains. now, as for the formula of these lipsticks, they’re very thick. it takes a while for them to dry completely, especially if you’ve put on a couple coats (which i think is necessary to get the color even). once they do, they aren’t completely stuck on there & they’re not exactly smudge proof. but they are a lot more in place than regular lipsticks. i think they’re probably an in between of true matte lipsticks & the normal kind. they were fun to try, & i’ll definitely wear them on occasion! they’re just not my favorite.

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now, i picked up this product absent mindedly, so i had no idea it was a creme shadow palette! this is the Revlon Illuminance Creme Shadow Palette in 710, Not Just Nudes. They are creme shadows, & they’re a gorgeous consistency. you get two shimmer shades, & two “matte” shades i suppose. the color pay off is awesome. i’ve been gravitating toward the first two shades, mostly because i love a light base shade to cover up all my eye lid veins, & i love the shimmery golden bronze shade to build with. but they’re all gorgeous! 10/10 would recommend, especially if you’re just looking for something small for travel, or just for your basics. this is great to throw in your purse or just to carry around for touchups. i love it.

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the other day i picked up Covergirl’s oh sugar! vitamin infused lip balm in the shade caramel. these lip balms have been staring me in the face every time i’ve gone into CVS & i just couldn’t resist anymore! i do admit, because of the packaging i thought it was a lipstick. however, i was pleasantly surprised. it’s in fact a vitamin infused lip balm, that makes your lips feel super moisturized while giving you a little shine & a little color! here’s a swatch of the sheer color it does give::

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i think if you’re just wanting to give your lips a break & focus on repairing & moisturizing them, or if you’re going for the “natural” look, these lip balms are awesome. they feel really nice & smell really good, & it’s nice knowing they’re also doing you some good as well. plus, the packaging is just cute. i mean c’mon. who can pass it up?

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now, i know i’m technically “young” (youth, so relative), but i’ve been on the search for an eye cream. i get extreme dark circles under my eyes that sometimes make people question if i’ve been punched. my eye area also gets really dry during the winter season. i want to work on keeping my skin healthy so i can look “young” as long as possible, so i went searching for an nightly eye cream of sorts. the CVS i was at was a little barren, & i was on a tight budget, so i opted for this little guy. so far, it’s been doing the trick. i’m definitely open to any suggestions if anyone has any for eye creams or any skin care products to keep that youthful look! for this product, you put a tiny amount on your under eye area before you sleep, & it just helps keep them moisturized which helps slightly with the dark circles & eye bags.

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these babies are Milani’s Moisture Lock Lip Treatments. the description they give is as follows::

Discover a revolution in lip hydration plus a healthy dose of shine with a first-of-its-kind lip oil in 8 addictively scented, kiss quenching shades. All lip oils are formulated with the natural healing power of Jojoba, Avocado and Tsubaki Oil. As an added benefit, each shade is infused with different nutrient-dense oils that treat a specific concern. The soft, extra plush applicator hugs the curves of your lips, locking in moisture.”

my description is as follows: I LOVE

my lips have been horrifying lately. winter is not my friend, & my lips have been hurting. chapped, constantly dry, despite the gobs of vaseline & layers of chapstick i’ve been applying. so when i saw these, i thought i’d just try them. i firstly picked up the on one top, 01 moisturizing almond & coconut oil. as said in the title, this one is targeted toward moisturizing. it smells like a piña colada, & definitely does what it promises to do. it is an oil, so it is really thick &, well, oily. but to me it feels amazing. i got hooked real quick, so i went back for more.

i picked up the second, which was 02 healing lemon honey, & my life changed. i was addicted. i swear, this stuff smells amazing (if you like the smell of lemon & honey, which i really do homegirl). i just can’t get over the smell of this one. & it’s done my lips wonders. i’m so addicted to these lip treatments & will rave about them to anyone who will listen!!
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well would you look at that! we’re on our last product!! home stretch.

this is NYX’S matte finish long lasting setting spray. i think they offer a dewy finish one as well, but like i’ve stated before, i like the matte look. i’ve never used a setting spray before this one, & used to mock people who did use one because really, who is that fancy. well, then winter came. i hate winter. burning passion of hatred. except that i’m freezing, so more like freezing passion of hatred? don’t know. anyway, since the weather tries to undo all the makeup i put on in the morning, i decided to give setting spray a try. & i really like it! i put it on after i’ve done my foundation & concealer, & i can really tell that it sets my makeup into place & keeps it locked into place during the day (no matter the weather). it’s a light formula & doesn’t feel like adding any extra product to your face. it’s definitely a step that i’ll be making sure to no longer skip, because i love having my makeup last throughout the day & not slide right off my face after all my tedious work. plus, it’s really decently priced, so i’d give it a try if i were you!


well folks, that’s all i’ve got for ya! those are my reviews on my most recent purchases. remember, i am not a make up professional by any means. these are just my personal opinions. if i’m being honest, i’m not even that comfortable with my make up quite yet (after like 4 year of doing it?), but i hope you guys enjoyed the post anyway. these products are all great in my opinion & deserve some recognition. however, just a disclaimer, i’m not affiliated or sponsored by any of these brands! i genuinely just enjoyed using them & wanted to let you all know.

if you like these type of posts, please let me know in the comments. they’re different for me, but i like pushing myself to go out of my comfort zone for you guys! i’d also love to give you more details on any of the products if you’re interested, just let me know.

lots of lipstick kisses,



light the candle, everything’s alright.

hi, i’m meredith, & i’m addicted to candles. but i swear, they provide some sort of therapeutic comfort for my soul so it’s not like this addiction is a bad thing… right?

i recently bought some new candles because, little secret for you guys, for some reason every store is having candle sales. & if that isn’t the perfect cure for my bouts of depression, i don’t know what is. nothing warms my soul like a candle that smells like homebaked goodness. so i thought i’d share with you my top 7 candles at the moment, if you guys need ideas on what candles to get for yourselves. let’s get started::

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first up:: herb & irma’s lemon & olive leaf scented soy candle. dudethis candleit smells so good i could cry. i’m not huge on citrus, but i really really adore the smell of lemon. i’m obsessed with lush’s bohemian soap, & this candle smells really similar. but due to the olive leaf, it’s a little less sweet & instead has a nice floral/herbal undertone. also, i mean c’mon, this packaging. it’s precious. perfect candle for the kitchen in my opinion!

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next up:: sonoma’s balsam & oak scented candle. “winter’s aromatherapy is the relaxing experience of fresh eucalyptus, bergamot and lemon zest infused with golden oak, hinokiwood and fresh balsam. cedar wood, creamy sandalwood and vintage oak add richness.” what a description! my all-time favorite candle has been bath & body works’ fresh balsam candle, but this one may beat it out. balsam is one of my favorite scents. i don’t really know many other people who like it, but i love it. it smells like the outdoors at christmas. of course it’s a woodsy scent, but this combination of balsam & oak is a little sweeter perhaps than just the fresh balsam. i’m really liking this candle.

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in no particular order, next is:: vintage lace scented soy candle from targetthe only description given for this candle is that it has a “light, flowery fragrance”. which honestly, i don’t even think describes it. the love bug says it smells “fabric-y” & my roomie says it smells like “vanilla with a twist of lemony linen”. so. there’s that. it just smells really nice to me for some reason, even if it is a weird smell you can’t really put your finger on. plus i love the gold container it comes in!

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& now:: sonoma’s pumpkin farm scented candle. “softly spiced pumpkin and warm chestnuts combine with wild greens and sweet apple embraced by earthy patchouli, glowing amber and smooth vanilla bean.” yep, this candle is quite the combination. but if i were gonna simplify it, i would say it just smells like the holidays. it’s sweet & spicy & floral & all around yummy. it’s not really heavy on the pumpkin, it’s just enough pumpkin spice mixed with woodsy & fruity smells. i definitely may save this candle for thanksgiving, but it just smells so warm & lovely.

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announcing:: threshold’s costal tide hand-poured wax pillar candlei genuinely don’t know how to describe this scent for you people… but i basically bought it because it smells like the love bug’s aftershave. & i’m sorry, but the love bug’s aftershave smells amazing. i know i annoy the crap out of him because after he shaves i won’t leave him alone & want to smell his face a lot. i always said i would just buy myself a bottle of it so i could smell it whenever, but then i discovered this wonderful candle! so now whenever i miss this smell, i have my own coastal tide candle to smell. this is getting weird. it smells good though!

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here is:: sonoma’s pumpkin pecan pie scented candle“the rich, authentic aroma of freshly made pumpkin pecan pie is captured in this mouthwatering blend of sweet mandarin, cinnamon sugar, pumpkin butter, brown sugar, and vanilla bean.” so this is one of the sweetest smelling candles i’ve ever smelled! but it’s absolutely wonderful. now, i don’t know that i ever knew pumpkin pecan pie existed? i mean i know pumpkin pie exists, and pecan pie exists, but the two together? hmph. never had it. but, the candle smells like caramel & sugar & pies & homebaked goodies & candy. it’s sweet & delightful.

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& last but not least:: signature soy’s coconut cake scented soy candle. i absolutely love coconut & the smell of it as well. this little candle packs a punch. it smells like the most deletable coconut cream cake you’ve ever had. you can even smell the toasted coconut on top, it’s like magic. it’s not sickeningly sweet but has just enough creamy goodness to entice you. perfect for a warm bath & some chocolates. (now i want some coconut cake…)


& those are my top 7 of the moment! do any of y’all love candles? if so, what are your favorite scents? do you tend to like the sweeter scents, or the more floral smells? let me know in the comments!


hope you’re all doing well.

much love,


get ready with me // holiday edition.

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hello, your friendly awkward blogger here! 

today i’m going to talk you through what make up i used to create a very festive look, perfect for any holiday party or christmas date or any day you feel like looking fancy this holiday season! however, here’s a little disclaimer to say that i am no beauty expert, & i don’t really use high-end make up. i mostly use drugstore make up, or make up items i’ve been gifted. so yeah, not a professional in any sense, don’t have the money for fancy make up, & i don’t really know what i’m doing. but, this has been requested on several occasions, so i thought i’d try to do my best with what i’ve got. i really hope you enjoy!

let’s get started!

  1. so my first step in my getting ready process is always to just pull my hair up into a pony tail & clean my face. depending on the condition of my skin, i will either use a cleansing wipe or a facial cleanser.
  2. i then moisturize my face. i have combination skin, but what i mean by that is that depending on the weather & the seasons, it’s either a little oily, or extremely dry. so during the summer, i have to use a moisturizer that contains salicylic acid in it (& is oil free) to keep my skin from getting to greasy during the day. but, now that it’s winter, my skin is super duper dry! which means i actually have to change a lot about my routine. but as far as moisturizer goes, i just look for moisturizers that provide hydration while still feeling lightweight. i’m currently loving Olay Active Botanicals Moisturizing Day Lotion. Processed with VSCOcam with c9 preset
  3. next up is my foundation! my mother gave me this foundation, & i’ve been loving it so far. it’s the Loreal Paris Age Perfect makeup, in the shade Soft Ivory. like i said before, this season my skin is very dry & very dehydrated. during the summer i use more of a water based foundation that is very lightweight, but during the winter i need something with a little thicker of a formula. this foundation is very creamy & yet doesn’t feel heavy on the skin. it’s got great coverage, & this shade suits my skin during the winter, when i’m a little paler. however, i think they’ve discontinued it! i only use it in the winter months, so when i run out it looks like i’ll have to find a dupe for it. i just apply this foundation all over my face & into my neck area, blending well.Processed with VSCOcam with c9 preset
  4. after my foundation, i use Loreal Infallible Pro-Matte Powder in the shade Porcelain. i love this face powder. i was introduced to it by my friend Paige, & ever since i can’t stop using it. it really helps set the foundation i’m using, since the foundation is rather dewy, & this powder is a brilliant long lasting matte. i use my Beauty 360 Bamboo Powder Brush to apply this everywhere i previously applied foundation.Processed with VSCOcam with c9 preset
  5. next, i use this Physicians Formula Powder Palette Mineral Glow Pearls in the shade Light Bronze Pearl. now, this powder is absolutely gorgeous. i think it’s kind of a it’s a mix between a highlighter & bronzer. since i get very pale in the winter, i apply it very lightly across my face where the sun would hit to give me a little bit of a bronze-y glow. i’m sure if you got the darker shades (i get the light shade) & used it very heavily, you could use it as a bronzer, but i apply it very lightly so i just use it as powder to go over my face powder. i definitely suggest using a separate brush & not the brush they provide to apply it, but i suggest that with almost every powder. that will give you the best color pay off. & just so ya know, this product is on the pricier side, but it lasts forever, at least the way i use it. so it’s really worth getting!Processed with VSCOcam with c9 preset
  6. i forgot to take a photo of the bronzer i use, but honestly i’m embarrassed cause i totally use cheapy bronzer! i just use a contour brush & lightly apply it under my cheekbones & under/along my jawline. & as i stated above, this whole makeup look was inspired by the elf eyeshadow palette i just bought. i love Elf Cosmetics, because it agrees with my college student budget while still being excellent quality! after i applied bronzer, i used Elf’s Baked Blush in the shade peachy cheeky. i wanted to buy the shade passion pink, because it suits my skin tone more, but they were out of stock the last time i went shopping. this shade is still truly lovely. i don’t usually apply blush anyway, only on special occasions, but since i was attempting to be fancy today, i used a fluffy blush brush to apply this lightly to the apples of my cheeks.
  7. next, i use Elf’s Hydrating Under Eye Primer … but nooot exactly how you’re supposed to. i used to use it under my eyes, but i didn’t really enjoy the way it reacted with my foundation. so now i’ve been using it as a primer on my eyelids. because i used a baked eyeshadow palette, it works a lot better if you apply it on a wet base or wet your brush before applying it. using this primer & then applying the eyeshadow while it’s still drying not only increasing the gorgeous pigment, but also helps it stay on all day long!
  8. time to talk eyeshadow! like i mentioned at the top of the post, this is really where a lot of my inspiration came from! i’ve been using the Elf Studio Baked Eyeshadow Palette (California #85131). these shadows are very shimmery & metallic. the individual shadows don’t have names that i can see, but i use the lightest shade as a base, a golden bronze from the bottom row on the middle of my eyelid, & a darker dustier bronze / brown shade in the outer corner of my eyelid. i didn’t go too heavy, because i’m going to be doing a statement red lip, but i was going for a very bronzey, festive, tinsel & gold inspired eyeshadow look.Processed with VSCOcam with c8 preset
  9. next goes the eyeliner! i use the Maybelline Line Stiletto Ultimate Precision Liquid Eyeliner in the color Blackest Black. now, i’ve been doing a cat eye since the end of 10th grade. i never used to wear makeup, but one day i just started experimenting with eyeliner for fun (pretty sure i was just bored, & my older sister had given me some eyeliner) & i liked the way it looked. a cat eye takes real practice. people are always asking me how i do it, & honestly, after more than 4 years of doing a cat eye, you just kind of could do it in your sleep. & yet, you still have days where one eye looks great & the other looks horrid. i’ve been using this eyeliner for about 2 years? i’ve gone between gel liner, liquid liner, felt tip liner, & pencil liner, but i think liquid is my favorite. it took me a while to find an applicator i really liked, but this one does the job for me. it’s definitely a longer applicator, so it takes practice & precision, but once you get the hang of it, the formula is great. it’s got a lovely rich black pigment, & once it dries it stays well. i just do a cat eye over my eyeshadow on both eyes, & hope it looks okay!
  10. then i apply my mascara. i found the NYC New York Color Big Bold Curl Mascara in Extreme Black a few years ago, & now i can’t live without it. it’s miraculous, & so darn cheap! the brush, i will warn you, is huge, but that’s what i love about it. it claims to give you 12x more voluminous lashes & 99% more curl & lift… which is quite the promise. but i can at least say that it has really worked for me. i already have really long, thick, dark, & curled lashes (thanks dad!) naturally, which is a blessing, but this mascara just adds so much for me. the formula is great, & you almost only need one swipe of the stuff & you’re good to go. beautiful lashes for nothing at all!
  11. & again, as pictured above, i used the Covergirl Star Wars, The Force Awakens lipsticknow, if you know a thing or two about me, you know that i love Star Wars & the new movie is the best thing that’s ever happened to me. slight exaggeration, but not really. i honestly have grown up on Star Wars & it’s always been my favorite! so i was really stoked when Covergirl released a make up line for us geeks. I have 3 of the lipsticks so far, but for this festive look I choose the Red 30 color. unfortunately they didn’t name the lipstick colors (missed opportunity in my opinion), so i came up with my own. & this one is, duh, darth maul. (could also be Red Leader, but i feel like no normal citizen would pick up that reference). this is a very pigmented shade, so if you have a lipliner, you might wanna use it! also, i just make sure & moisturize & exfoliate my lips regularly, so that applying lipstick is seamless.

& that’s all folks! insert awkward selfie to display finished make up look here:

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i’m awful at taking pictures of myself, this is really cringe worthy, but here is the final look! the lighting was pretty bad so unfortunately i look a little strange, but i promise it turned out a-ok. i also curled my hair & put on a red plaid dress, & sparkly crystal earrings for extra festive-ness!

i hope you all enjoyed this post, & some of your questions have been answered about what products i use. if anyone wanted to know anything else, feel free to ask any questions below in the comments section & i’ll get back to you speedy quick. i hope these holiday inspired blog posts have been fun for you guys! keep coming back, cause we have a couple more to go!

see you tomorrow, & have a happy holiday season.

hugs & love,



& these are a few of my favorite things.

1. coffee houses. especially this one in particular. eclectic & quaint & perfect for all occasions. perfect for date nights, study sessions, catching up with old friends, people watching, diving into good books, or just drinking some coffee. they’re known for their epic flavored lattes, & awesome atmosphere. live irish bands on sundays, jazz nights on thursdays, & always a choice playlist playing in the background in between. i happened to just get back from jazz night & this girl swoons at the sound of a saxophone, so you bet i was in heaven.

3. grey flowy things. ask any of my friends, my wardrobe consists of mainly grey flowy things. my love language is probably grey flowy things. i get this weird sort of satisfaction & joy when i see other people also wearing grey flowy things. my mom is always saying, “do you really need another grey flowy thing?!?” & you bet i’m always answering, “uh, YES, YES I DO.” i found this dress & just couldn’t resist. it’s the perfect color grey & the perfect amount of flowy. makes ya wanna frolic your heart out!

3. ice cream parlors. especially little ones that have been around for ages & still use glass coke bottles! the love bug & i love to take walks down to the ice cream parlor to share a cup of cookies & cream & soak up the sun.

4. i love lucy.

my darling roomie & i had this conversation about how much we adored i love lucy & next thing i know my mom bought us the first season on DVD. so you bet i spent a lazy friday morning in bed watching episode after episode of i love lucy & laughing my sides off. did anyone else grow up with this show?? it’s so hilarious & silly & i love it.

5. rings.

it’s a jewelry weakness of mine. my bestest gal pal has this fear of rings which cracks me up because i’m the total opposite. i recently got these two rings from the cutest jewelry & knick knack store we have next to campus & i love them. one is silver & has this really cool texture to it, & the other is a mood ring!!! 90’s kids, what’s good. i used to love mood rings (but the ones with the color all around the ring), so when i saw this adorable oval one i was like um, yes please. apparently i’m always very happy, & then nervous. how accurate!

6. marble everything.

okay, so marble takes the cake as the prettiest. taking art history in our campus’ art museum is my favorite because of the marble columns (that i secretly desire to just hug they are so beautiful). i didn’t know marble print was a thing until i saw an instagram post of this journal & i was like UM YES? HELLUR 911 MARBLE EMERGENCY. i take obsessions way too far probably, but the marble lovin’ has hit me strong. i was never so excited to receive something in the mail as i was this gorgeous journal. not even gonna pretend i don’t stroke that beautiful cover sometimes. this is a trend i can give my blessing to. marble everything please.

7. you guys.

no really, i love you all. you’re my favorite.


& those are just a few of my favorite things! *cue maria von trapp singing the hills are aliiiive*

what are a few of your favorite things? let me know in the comments! 

all my love,


you are beautiful.

you are imperfect, permanently and inevitably flawed- and you are beautiful. (amy bloom)

i’ve been struggling a lot with self love lately. i guess being a human makes it very hard not to absolutely loathe myself some days. i mean, it’s inevitable. we are human. we make mistakes. we are imperfect; we are flawed. but sometimes i feel as if i’m living my life as one big apology to the world for all my millions of flub-ups. i haven’t come to terms that it’s okay to not be perfect.

i look at myself in the mirror and i point out all that i could change about myself. everything that could be better or smaller, every scar i wish wasn’t there, every freckle or mark i despise. but what do i expect? is any human perfect? is any human without a single blemish?

sometimes i think the world just needs a giant hug and a reminder that it’s okay, absolutely okay, to be imperfect. to be permanently and inevitably flawed. in fact, it’s beautiful. i think as humans, that’s not our natural reaction. we strive for perfection, for what could be better, we never settle. so yeah, maybe it takes a conscious effort to recognize beauty in the imperfect. but i think that’s something we should fight for. what if we went out of our way each day to make sure to compliment someone’s appearance? who knows, maybe that person will go home, look in the mirror, and realize hey, they like their hair too. and what if we showed ourselves the same kindness we show others? what if we looked in the mirror and said, you have gentle but passionate eyes, self. your smile has meaning and strength to it, which makes it powerful, self. your wrinkles are reminders that you have smiled, and they tell stories of joy and laughter. your hair looks like a lioness’ mane; it looks like it holds secrets. your teeth are uniquely yours, crooked and cute. your ears are dainty, your nose assertive, your cheeks plump, your jaw line direct. you are imperfect, self. you are permanently and inevitably flawed. and you are beautiful.

say it one more time for the people in the back,


say it one more time for people who love you,


say it one more time for the people who drag you down,


say it one more time for you.

i am beautiful.

treat yo self 2015.

clothes, treat yo self. fragrances, treat yo self. massages, treat yo self. mimosas, treat yo self. fine leather goods, treat yo self.

(if you picked up on my reference, i love you let’s be friends).

anyway, hi darlings! meredith here. the first two weeks of my sophomore year of college have definitely not been the easiest… so in the midst of it all, i gave myself some time to…ya know… treat myself 😉 as we all know being a college student means being broke, so these items, though small (or bought on sale hollllllaaaa), were a total treat.

olive flowy dress: 50% off at target // my own oasis candle: 70% off at target // glasses case: tjmaxx // star wars sketchbook: barnes & noble // wrap bracelet: 50% off at cracker barrel

ya girl knows how to find sales! that dress fulfills all my flowy needs. i have this obsession with clothes that make me look like a potato sack with no figure, it’s great. i get to hide in the folds of the dress and frolic around like i’m an irish princess or something. plus, when something is 50% off and your budget gives you a little extra wiggle room… treat yo self.

the star wars sketchbook wasn’t exactly a treat. more of a requirement for being an art major. however the sketchbooks i already own were too small for my teachers’ desire, so i needed a new one. all the sketchbooks at the art store were pretty boring and pretty expensive… so a trip to barnes & noble later & i landed me a star wars sketchbook. i also think, if you’re an artist, you’re going to want to sketch more if you really love your sketchbook. i have old sketchbooks i never touch purely because i don’t really like the way they look… i always pick up my more aesthetically pleasing ones first. don’t judge a book by it’s cover is usually the rule of thumb, but it may not apply here. i mean, all sketchbooks deserve equal love, but i’m an advocate for a sketchbook that aligns with your personality.

sketchbook rant end here.

my own oasis: with notes of toasted coconut, sheer jasmine, & cucumber water.

it smells as magical as they tried to make it sound. i’m not allowed to burn it though, as i live in the dorms and ya know, fire. smoke. blah blah blah. (no really it’s serious). but i sat it out next to my succulent garden and it definitely still makes the room smell nice. i can’t wait to take it home on break though. bubble baths & soy based candles are pretty much my heaven.

my mumsies actually purchased this for me. being the clumsy fool i am, i accidentally stepped on my old glasses case & have been in search for the perfect case ever since. not only is this special to me cause my dear marmee got it for me, but those words hold a special place in my heart for another reason. & that’s because my dearest gal pal susanna is heading over to Wales to study abroad for a while. i shall miss her dearly, & my eyes will be on Europe always, thinking of her & hoping to visit her someday!


i hope you enjoyed my little rants about my treats! i’ll have you know… i ended up writing an entire post just about the wrap bracelet & it got pretty deep… if you’re up to reading a kinda emotional post, let me know & i’ll post it on monday.

anyway, i hope you’re all having wonderful semesters so far, & remember to treat yo self when things get tough. doesn’t have to be expensive, the dollar store is your friend 😉 if anyone has treat yo self stories you wanna tell me, comment below. it’ll be fun.

much love,


& on this episode of “i did something drastic.”

oh hey guys. what’s up? wanna hear a story? cool. cause i wanna tell ya one.

once upon a time, i’ve always had long hair. long, long hair. and a loooot of it. long, thick, heavy, straight hair. when i was little it was probably closer to brown, then in my young teens it was more dirty blonde, and now we’re thinking it’s trying to be red//auburn? it changes color depending on the day i swear, plus the lighting can make it look all sorts of rainbow colors. oh the hair struggles. i’ve also realized i don’t think i’ve ever even shown my face on this blog yet??? what is this madness. probably my insecurity. hah. cries. aaaaanyway, here are pictures of my long hair in all its glory::


& a really awful looking picture of my hair at it’s longest and poofiest::

ta daaaaa. 

okay, so let’s talk about those long hairs. i was sort of raised to believe that long hair was the beauty of a woman (which registered in my noggin’ as the only beauty of a woman), so i always thought if i cut my hair i’d probably be cutting off my beauty and womanhood or something. how tragic. i thought long hair meant beauty, and short hair just meant “cute”. like 5 year old cute. like bye bye womanhood.

my hair was also pretty much my security blanket. i’ve never really had any self-esteem and struggle with detrimentally hating the way i look. so the long hair was nice, because it turned people’s attention away from my face and toward my long hair. i could hide behind it. even when people complimented me, i just assumed the “beauty” they were referring to was my long hair. it was the only thing i felt semi-confident about, and even then it was a distorted confidence.

come this summer, i’ve been working excruciatingly hard to accept myself. loving begins with acceptance, right? i tried to break down unrealistic expectations i held myself to. i tried to be nicer to myself. but i was still hiding behind that hair.

i also struggle with chronic migraines, & constantly overheating & getting heat exhaustion. during a trip this summer the hair was a real problem. i got heat exhaustion, tried putting my hair in a topknot to get it off my neck & immediately got a migraine from the weight. even my neck would hurt from all the weight. so this thought of “…what if i cut my hair?” creeped in.

i couldn’t grasp it really. i was afraid of looking 5. i was afraid of not having something to hide behind. i was afraid of letting go of the one thing i actually kind of maybe liked about myself. i’ve also always been super ashamed of my chubby cheeks. i’ve got these like obnoxiously prominent cheekbones that jut out like they own the place. and unfortunately it makes me look like a chipmunk. i was afraid the shorter hair would just make my face look so round and bring so much attention to my cheeks….gah.

BUT. i decided to do it. scheduled the appointment. then i chickened out and decided to just trim it. hah. then i saw an instagram post from a friend that said, “do you have a face? yay, you have a face for short hair!” and it got me thinking. then my dad said something that got me thinking. then i was at the salon, panicking, about to cry, ranting to my hairdresser about the struggles. she told me to shut up and trust her. and not cry. i followed her instructions…. and i’m actually pretty happy that i did ::



^pretty much what i did for a few hours after i cut it. (sorry padres…)

dude. i can’t believe this is me. it is truly crazy what a hair cut can do! i already feel super free. my neck is singing praises. my top knots are adorable and painless. my cheeks… are still there, but hey! no extra attention really. except for the attention i just drew to them… welp.

i am a happy camper. really, i’ve been a lot happier since this has been done. don’t even know why. but it’s even helped me to accept//love myself more than i ever could. i guess it’s forced me to look at my face. and be like, hey face. you are my face. we’re gonna be together for a while. so let’s be pleasant to one another, huh? i may not be the biggest fan of my cheeks or my smile, but i’m gonna try my best to be nice. but dude. i kinda like my hair.


do any of you have major hair cutting experiences that you would want to share? do you have tips for short hair care? ideas for up-dos? general thoughts? comment below! hearing from you is my favorite. i like it even more than i like my new hair. i super like you guys.

thanks for reading//dealing with my ramblings!

much love,

mere bear & her new hair.


deck the hauls.

this is gonna be a haul post. heh. get it?

hi! hello! hope you’re all having fun summers filled with adventure & fun. today’s the day i’m traveling back from the wonderful land of california to the… quaint land of north carlolina. cries. which means i’m probably travel anxious in an airport in LA right now. woo!

before i left for this trip i ran to the store to pick up some new high waisted shorts, & brought home a few more items. i thought for fun, we’d just talk about that. how fun.

le purchases:

  1. a brief guide to j.r.r. tolkien, by nigel cawthorne. because i’m obsessed & i wanted something to read on the plane.
  2. extra large slouchy white v-neck. because you can never have enough of these. i’m serious.
  3. black flowy razor back tank top. because, again, you can never have enough.
  4. the high-waisted shorts i actually went to the store to buy. super comfy, super soft, kinda faded, practically perfect. only downfall? fake pockets. curse you, women’s clothing, curse you.

& that’s all for now folks. i’ll see ya (for realsies) real soon!

much love, meredith.

i’m a monochromatic copycat with no style but a lot to say, apparently.

i went through like 17 titles before choosing that one so don’t judge me.

ahem. so, at 4:31 am, as i’m frantically packing, i’m realizing that i will soon see old friends that i haven’t seen in some time… that i will be at graduations… and parties… and dinners… and events… and that i will, in fact, whether i like it or not, be making some sort of statement as to who i have become with the way i look. some people i know will be quick to jump at that sentence and say, “if they are true friends, they will only judge you based on your heart, not your style.” to which i will say, hah. because let’s be real here. i mean, i do attempt to be a genuine, accepting, loving, and understanding person. i try to judge someone only based on their person:: their character, their actions, their lifestyle, etc. i’m sure a lot of you also try to be genuine human beings who only judge people on their innards not their outtards. however… does not the way a person dresses themselves say something about the way they view themselves? does it not say something about the value they place in first impressions, in presence and beauty? also don’t jump on a pedestal, you’ve totally judged someone based on their lime green turtle neck, admit it. just thoughts.

i suppose i didn’t intend to get too overly thought-provoking here but who knows what will happen when you write a blog post at 4 am. i also don’t mean to sound shallow or materialistic. whoops. all the goals being missed by a long shot.

anyway, as all these thoughts are racing through my head, i swung open my closet doors to find this::

ah yes. go meredith. your closet consists of pretty much the same color scheme throughout (grey, black, white, occasional off-white…), everything is flowy, and lord almighty how many stripes can a woman own before becoming a zebra? again, because it’s 4 am, i decided to think real hard about my style choices.

a few weeks ago, i made a quality investment in this book here, hey natalie jean. (totally worth the embarrassment of the man working at barnes & noble directing me to the parenting section, only to ask when i was expecting. oh no sir, no buns in the oven here. just because i wear maternity clothing for flowy purposes does not give you the right to assume pregnancy.) anyway, i bought the book on account of reading a particular blog post from my favorite blogger, and author of the book. in this blog post, and in the book, natalie talked about two things that i’ve literally had the urge to talk about myself for years. and the first was defining your style.

call me a copy cat, but i’ve had this idea, i swear, for forever. even ask my friends… i’ve forced them to sit down at coffee with me and listen to me rant. natalie describes it as “the pinterest disconnect”. see, i could never pinpoint how i wanted to dress in real life. however, i could totally pin how i wanted to dress on pinterest. my style board was filled with flowy grey tunics… and yet when i was at the store i would, for some reason, reach for the brightly colored patterned everything. i think i was trying to overcompensate for my dull social life or something. who knows. then i began college, went through a slew of life changes, and got to a point where while i wanted to be stylish, i also just wanted to be hella comfy. i didn’t want to feel so wrong in my own clothes. so i went to tjmaxx and bought all the grew flowy things.

there was a lot of guilt at first… my mom kept saying, “do you really need another grey flowy shirt? do you really need another shawl? do you really need another black flowy tank top? how many striped things do you own???”  and yeah, i probably own a plethora of striped items. and yeah, i probably get told i dress like a grandma a lot. and yeah, i do buy everything in XL even though i’m a small/medium. and guess what? i looooove it. and i wear it! isn’t that the point of clothes?

which brings me to my second (and final, bare with me) ranting point. do you wear all of your clothes? think about that for a second. quoting from both natalie jean, and the joy of less, there’s this thing called the 20%. you probably wear 20% of your clothing, 80% percent of the time. and that leftover 80%? it’s taking up room in your drawers. i got in this habit of hanging everything i wear frequently in my closet, and leaving everything else in my dresser drawers…i’ll have you know i haven’t opened those drawers barely once this whole summer. i’ve started giving clothes away and getting rid of what i don’t wear because let’s be real. it saves me the embarrassment of convincing myself yes meredith you can rock that skin tight floral print sinchy shirt, going out in public past the point of no return, catching a glance of myself in a mirror, and oh hell no meredith you can’t rock this what we’re you thinking are you crazy why do you even own this??? i find the best way to get rid of that 80% with ease is to just find your 20%, get into your 20% groove, and soon you won’t care for that 80% at all.

so there you have it! a post that’s basically already been posted and written about in two different books that i decided to take upon myself to write at what is now 5 am when i need to be packing for my trip to california where i will impress my old friends with how utterly monochromatic and lame i am. jazz hands!!! i do hope you got something out of this post though. maybe.

farewell, dear ones.